I dislike that that my gf doesn't tell me what she wants. Whether or not she wants me to kiss her or not. How do you solve a problem of bad communication in a relationship?

Ya know what I find that life is. One useless moment after another. Most people would say get a girlfriend. Well people I have one an' she ignored me like i'm some sort of kreep. Well hate to tell you this deary but you said yes. Then people say get a job well how many applications do you think I have turned in? I have gone to over 75 places gotten applications filled them out and still no job. And this is my first one! So yea i'm mean go ahead and think what you will but life is just one pointless moment after the next.